Today, my head feels a little heavy, I'm not sure why. It might be from staring at the computer screen for too long. By the way, I seem to be getting better at playing shooting games. Hehe.
I listened to a podcast about learning Arabic. I learned one thing from it. I want to learn English, Mandarin, Japanese, and Korean because of my love for their movies and music. That’s the reason I want to try learning those languages.
I previously learned Arabic, but it wasn't a priority. Arabic is the language used in the Quran, Allah's love letter to human. Why haven't I learned it? If I truly love Allah, I should learn his language, right? It's like if you have a Chinese lover, you would learn Mandarin to communicate with them.
I also need to save money and reduce my spending. I still don't have a job or income, so I need to be frugal. I also want to stay home more. But sometimes I feel lonely and confused if I stay inside for too long.
I have some videos I took that I could use for content. But I don't know if I'll actually make content with them. I'm feeling a little unmotivated, like I've lost the spark. Especially after people close to me started getting involved in my work. They ask, "What kind of content are you making? Why aren't you making content today? Where are you going to make content today?" I mean, I've never asked them about their jobs, right?
The desire to disappear has returned. I once deleted all my social media because I wanted to disappear. But in this digital age, social media seems to be necessary.
My thoughts today are quite complex and
contradictory. Hahaha.
(uwiepuspita)
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