Hello
Love,
Today
is my sister's birthday. I almost forgot about it until I saw a notification on
my phone. I sent her a message in our family group to wish her a happy
birthday.
Nothing
really special happened today. I watched
a movie to review. Oh, I cooked today, but I put too much white pepper in
it! So, it was a little hard to eat. But it's okay.
I
went for a bike ride, but only for 45 minutes today. I didn't have enough time because I started
late. And I have an English class at
night. So, I could only do it for 45
minutes.
Remember
the maintenance money we talked about yesterday? Well, they brought it up again today. But, right now, I'm trying not to think about
it. I don't want to get overwhelmed
again.
I
decided to make it easy on myself. If
they ask for the money, I'll give it. If something happens to my house, I'll
just fix it. I don't want to stress
about it anymore. Whatever happens
tomorrow, let it happen. If we're still alive, that's good, right?
I mean, I'm just one person, and no one else feels the same
way. I am just nobody. Even if I don't agree, they'll still do it, right? I've explained my concerns to them, but no
one has offered an opinion. It seems like they don't care, so there's nothing I
can do about it. All I can do is accept
it.
You know about the Spiral of Silence theory? That's what I'm
doing now. I'm staying silent because
I'm in the minority. My voice is small
compared to the power of the majority.
All I can do is stay quiet and accept it.
Something's
been on my mind today. My neighbor is getting remarried to someone new after
her divorce. I'm so happy for her! It
made me think about how she could open up to someone new so quickly. I'm personally maybe a little traumatized,
and sometimes I don't feel right about asking God for a
"husband." I mean, I'm
skeptical about it.
God
is so huge and great, right? There's nothing He can't do. I just feel insecure, maybe. I don't know exactly what I'm feeling. It's
complicated.
I
think that's it for today. See you tomorrow, Love.
(Uwiepuspita)
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