Hello
Love,
Today,
nothing went according to plan. Remember
how the shop where I usually buy vegetables was closed yesterday? I tried it again today, and… it was still
closed!
I
went to another shop a little further away and bought some bok choy, green
beans, and carrots. Actually, I still
have a few carrots and green beans left – enough for one more meal. But I needed to stock up because my period is
coming soon. Usually, I can't do much because of the pain during my period.
I
also went to buy some papaya at my usual shop, but the price seemed different
today. It was more expensive. Usually, I buy it for 15,000 rupiah, but today it
was 20,000 rupiah. I was a little confused, but I didn't argue. Haha.
Oh
yeah, I really wanted to eat shrimp today.
The shop where I bought the vegetables didn't sell it, so I tried
another shop. Unfortunately, they didn't
have it either.
I
almost gave up, so as a last resort, I tried to buy some from the street food
stall where I usually get seafood. But, once again, they were closed. I don't know.
Maybe I'm not meant to eat shrimp today.
I
went to the pharmacy to buy some vitamins.
Usually, I order them online because they're sometimes cheaper. But today, I made the right decision to buy
them directly at the pharmacy. They were 20,000 rupiah cheaper!
My
mental health isn't good today. I'm
feeling overwhelmed. You know I'm unemployed right now, and then I got news
that I need to contribute to a pool of money to fix the road in my housing
area. If the road gets fixed, my house terrace will be affected, and I'll need
to fix it too. And that also costs money.
I
really don't know what to do. I mean,
why do the problems never stop? So many things have happened in the last two
years. Just when I think I'm starting to
get back on my feet, another problem pops up. I don't think I can handle it.
I
need to stop for a minute. I just want
everything to stop. I can't handle this
alone. Please help me.
I
try to slow down my brain. I listen to some instrumental music and do some
exercise while listening. I even cycled with my eyes closed! I just let my feet do the work and let my
brain rest. It's weird, right? But I need to make myself tired. Exercising
is better than hurting myself.
I
exercised for about 30 minutes and then fell asleep for another 30 minutes. But
not on the bicycle – I slept after the exercise. Then, I continued cycling for another
hour. So, that's 90 minutes total.
I
think I'm feeling a little better now.
Of course, it involved a little (or maybe a lot) of crying. Haha.
Enough
for today. See you tomorrow, Love.
(Uwiepuspita)
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