Day 20: Your mood for the past 3 months
I think I posted this at a bad time. Honestly, I've been trying to recover from my trauma over the past three months. Last year, I had to end my relationship, and it really hurt. Not just because I lost the person, but because it forced me to re-evaluate my life. I lost my direction and my sense of purpose. It felt like I was letting my parents down.
My mood is still up and down. My mental health isn't great. Sometimes I feel suddenly lonely, I want to cry, I want to die, and I have other negative feelings. But then sometimes, I feel okay.
I really want to move somewhere new, where no one knows me. But I don't have enough money to do that. I'm unemployed right now.
If you ask me why I haven't tried to find a job, it's because my mind is complicated. It's like I'm full of contradictions. There are a lot of things I need to consider. It's hard because not many people understand how I think. And I understand their concern about my future, too. It's just so complicated.
I think I should see a professional again, but I don't think
it would really help. I don't think they would truly understand my way of
thinking either. Can you understand me?
(uwiepuspita)
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