Day 1: Describe Yourself in 3 Word
It's true, we often don't know ourselves very well. If we had to describe
ourselves in 3 words, what words would we choose? It's actually a simple task,
but quite difficult to do. We never really see ourselves fully because we're
too busy with how others see us.
If I had to choose, I'd probably pick perfectionist,
ambitious, and fragile.
Perfectionist
Born into a family that was a bit strict in terms of education, I unconsciously became a perfectionist. It's not without reason. This was my way of protecting myself from always getting nagged, scolded, or angry. It was a defense mechanism I used back then.
I believe that doing everything 'perfectly' and 'according to standards' will keep me out of trouble. Maybe even get appreciation, even though that rarely happens. But this is like a double-edged sword, it has negative and positive sides.
Of course, the positive side is that I
become someone who tries to do everything as well as possible. But, I often
apply these standards to the people around me too. The worst part was, if
someone didn't do a job according to my standards, it would trigger my
emotions. Although it's not as bad as it used to be now. I've learned that
perfect results don't always have to be the standard, as long as we've tried
our best.
Ambitious
Being the youngest child often means you get treated in a way where you're compared to your siblings. This is what makes me competitive and ambitious. In line with my perfectionist nature, it eventually made me ambitious.
Ambition is a good thing, but it's actually
a little difficult to do when your family doesn't have the same perspective and
point of view. My love of reading psychology-themed books has influenced my way
of thinking. I always believe that we can be anything and achieve anything as
long as we believe, are confident, and try. But my family doesn't think so. So,
it makes this way of thinking a little difficult to apply.
Fragile
Of course, with my two traits above, I become someone who always wants to appear strong. I rarely express my feelings and problems to anyone. Including my family. But, it turns out this actually makes me fragile. Like a time bomb, every problem I keep to myself eventually explodes and shatters me into pieces.
Actually, this is also proven by the personality test I took. Where I am a Choleric Melancholic. Two personalities that are actually a little contradictory, one is too optimistic, the other is sometimes pessimistic. Although the dominance of both depends on what's happening to me.
Maybe those three things describe me at the
moment. What about you?
You can see the challenge here!
(uwiepuspita)
0 Comments